It took everything Dean had not to
launch himself at Abira, he almost did when she dropped down next to
Sam but the look on her face stopped him. She was appalled by what
she had done, and behind the disgust her eyes there was pain and
sadness.

“Oh Cas, I'm so sorry.”

Abira reached out to touch the angel
but pulled her hand away, and placed it over her eyes to hide the
tears that were falling.

Tony and Gram stood behind Abira with
grim expressions, Tony placed a a hand on his daughters shoulder and
squeezed it lightly.

“It wasn't you're fault Abira.
You weren't in control---”

“It was my fault, these things
are in me and they were able to take control of me and then I did
this....If I were stronger I could've stopped myself, I could've
stopped them sooner.”

“Damn it! Why are you two talking
like Cas is dead! He's not dead Damn it!” Dean stood suddenly
and looked down at the crying girl. “You have some freaking
magic right?! Well FIX HIM!”

“I can't! There are rules!
Consequences I can't bring back the dead!”

“HE'S NOT DEAD!”

Dean lunged at Abira but Sam pushed him
back.

“Dean!” Sam gave Dean a
look before turning to Abira.

“What consequences? What'll
happen?”

“To bring back the dead...you
need to make an exchange. Cross Road Demons can bring people back
with a deal, but you sacrifice you're soul in the process.”

“So one of us would have to give
up our soul to bring Cas back?”

“No, with me it's different. It's
not just the soul that will need to be sacrificed...I need life force
to.”

“Life force?”

Dean asked as Sam took on the look that
he always wore when he found out something horrible.

“I need to...kill someone to
bring someone else back. And because Cas is an angel I will probably
need to kill more then just one.”

“So basically you work under a
life for a life policy.”

“That's what my magic does...to
get something I need to give something. Most of the time I can just
give my energy and all that will happen is I have an attack after I
run out, but to bring back a soul and
heal a body...it's going to take everything I have.”

“Why
can't you use someone elses energy?”

“Cause
steeling their energy would shorten their life span or if what I took
was to much then it would kill them. I'm not gonna do that to
someone.”

Sam
and Dean looked at each other in worry. If what Abira said was true
then one or more of them would have to sacrifice themselves to bring
Castiel back.

“Take
my soul.”

Dean
said turning to Abira.

“What?”

“Take
my soul or energy or whatever. I can take it.”

“Dean
I can't...I wont take someone elses life.”

“Please!
Abira! It wont kill me just take it!”

“No!
Besides it wont be enough! For an angel to come back it's going to
take a lot more then just one person can give.”

“Then
take mine to.”

Sam
said.

“What?
Sammy no!”

“Dean,
the angels aren't just gonna let us die! They still need us!”

“The
angels?”

“Yeah,
they got some big plan for me and Sam so they always bring us back
when we die.”

“I'm
still not gonna do it! I can't!”

“Abira!”
Dean looked at the young girl pleadingly. “Please...we'll be
fine. Just bring back Cas.”

Abira
looked between the Winchester brothers.

“Alright.”

Castiel
was walking in a garden unlike any her had seen on earth or in
heaven.

“Where
am I?”

He
thought back to what he last remembered and clasped his neck.

“Abira!”

Castiel
pulled his hand away from his hand, expecting blood but saw none. He
looked himself over and saw not a single injury.

“Is
this...where angels go when they die. Is this...our heaven?”

Castiel
looked around at the garden and it did seem like heaven but something
felt off about it.

“This
isn't heaven nor is it any place I've ever heard of...Is this where
Father is?”

Castiel
felt a presence and turned slightly.

“Father?”

A
woman's laugh filled the air.

“I'm
afraid not Cas.”

“Abira?”

There
was a shimmer in the air and as it cleared Abira stood before him.

“I'm
sorry Cas...I wasn't...I didn't...”
“It is alright. I
understand. Do you know where we are?”

“No...It's
not heaven, as it's sure as hell not Hell.”

Castiel
looked down confused.

“Why
are you here? Are you dead as well?”

“No...The
Winchesters insisted that I bring you back to life. I'm here for
you.”

“Bring
me back to life? Only angel or demons---”

“Can
do that? Well I can to, it just costs more.”

“What
does it cost?”

“A
life for a life.”

“Dean
would never allow that.”

“He's
the one offering his soul, him and Sam. They say the angles would
bring them back.”

Castiel
went quiet as worry filled his chest.

“My
brothers would indeed bring them back if they died, but not with out
punishment...”

“They
didn't tell me that. I didn't know.”

“I'm
sure they think they can take what whatever punishment my brothers
decide to give them.”

Castiel
stood quietly as Abira watched him.

“Cas...if
you want Sam and Dean to live through this, we have to go.”

Castiel
lifted his head and looked at the young dark haired woman.

“Alright.”